He Saw Me

 

Note: I actually wrote this on Tuesday, August 20th

 Today, the Lord saw me. He sees me and knows what I need everyday, but today he let me know it. He gave me a taste of his perfect understanding. And he does understand! He knows exactly what I need to grow, what I love, and what would fill my cup with joy, better than I do. Way, way better than I do. Today demonstrated that. I feel alive and full. Here’s what happened! 

Last night I picked up Hyrum at the airport at 1 am. I love to be up at 1 am, especially if I’m doing something interesting, useful, and good. He has been gone on his study abroad, and I MISSED him. So much of what made today wonderful for me was his presence. Even though he hadn’t really slept much in days, we stayed up talking for a long time. He is my sibling who is most similar to me. We think and feel alike and we get each other. We’re also in similar life phases. (I’m the old version lol.) 

He’s also just good.  He is so supportive and kind and makes me feel better about myself by being himself. He feels deeply like I do and bravely pursues his dreams. I really love him. 

Then this morning I slept way in which was glorious. We went to Zupas and then to Provo. He is trying to move and figure out contracts and he had to pick up his guitar from his apartment. Then we prepared to meet his new girlfriend, Emma. They met on the study abroad, and he was all nervous and excited to see her again, bring her flowers, and meet her family. 

The plan was that I would drop him off to pick up the newly-fixed Expedition and then he would go see her in Kaysville and I would do my thing before both driving home to Starr Valley separately. We rolled up to my least favorite place, Murray Auto Repair Murray. Don’t ask me why it’s called Murray Auto Repair Murray on Google Maps. It just is. 

It broke down in like mid-June in Provo, and we brought it there because they’re open super late and it was late. Well, we’ve been back and forth to have them re-fix it like a million times. It’s either not ready when they said it would be or it’s not actually fixed. 

Anyway, we got there and lo and behold, it won’t be ready any time soon after all. So we carry on together. This turns out to be a big blessing for reasons which will become clear. 

Ok, then I realized that I didn’t have to time to drive Hyrum all the way to Emma’s house in Kaysville before my thing at the Conference Center. So she came and met us at Crown Burger. And I got to MEET her. And she’s wonderful. Like super. 

Then on to my thing! Like a month ago this cute Filipina girlI knew at BYU-Hawaii posted on her story that she needs YSA-aged people to apply to be in a video clip that will be used to connection with General Conference and it pays $100. So I applied, and she invited me to do it. 

There were six of us and I also knew one of the guys from BYU-Hawaii. It was Sam Clayton who was in my first ward there and in choir with me. We were the two obnoxious ones on choir tour in New Zealand who had both served our missions there, me in Hamilton and him in Auckland... and the Cook Islands for a couple transfers (so jealous of that). The two girls were adorable, tiny Latinas, and one had done NALCAP, which is my program, in Spain! So that was amazing to get to talk to her. The other was so cute and kept talking about how she just felt something different in the Conference Center and remarking on how amazing it was. Finally, I realized that she wasn’t a member of the church. I started telling her a little about it and about General Conference and stuff, and she started crying! So yeah. I got her number, and I’m going to share the gospel with her. 

Hyrum soundly slept the whole way home because he was SO sleep deprived, but I drove home with the help of Swig, the Tooele Arby’s, and my Happy Girl Summer Spotify playlist. And I was just happy. Usually, I listen to books (I’ve been listening to A History of Spain and actually really enjoying it), but this time I just wanted to think. Life can be drudgerous (which apparently isn’t a word, but that’s obviously not stopping me), stressful, and scary, but today it was sweet, comforting, fun, and full of love. Hooray for God’s little gifts of goodness and all the beauty hidden in so many of the corners of life.